I've thought for a while about doing this... Not that I really have much to say... and I have a hard time with spelling and grammar... but at the same time, I want to give it a try... If nothing more than for myself to look back on and see how life was...
My life is mainly taken up by my two kids and a husband...
My life feels hard right now because of hormones from having baby #2, lack of sleep, change of schedule, feelings of loneliness, and my grass is greener syndrome...
Life will be hard until Jesus returns.
.. I am convinced it's so that I will lean into Him...
My kids aren't natural sleepers, it feels like I have to struggle to get them to sleep...I am at my weakest when I am sleep deprived...this is the place I HAVE to lean the hardest...my patience is low, my emotions go crazy...I am just plain
mean...(and I HATE IT)...
I really do enjoy my kids:
Jada says so many funny things and makes me laugh daily...she has made me enjoy life just a little bit more. She loves it when you laugh at what she is doing, she is moved more by praise than by the "spoon", if you come into a room she is in she will most likely greet you, weather she knows you or not, when she gets excited about something she jumps up and down and SCREAMS YEAAAAAAAH! She is beautiful, She is loud, and She is mine and I love her!
Justus seems to have more of a quietness about him. When he talks to you it is gentle and sweat, he smiles so easily that I can't help but try to get more, even if it is in the middle of the night :) He is a good eater-still wants to eat every 3 hours around the clock! I can't wait to learn more about him as he grows.
Jonathan is such a wonderful father, husband and friend. He is working so hard in this season of life, he has a full time job, is going to school almost full time-he is taking an EMT course, so he can be a firefighter. Only to come home and be a full time father. :) He handles me and all of my crazy emotions so well. I am not the only one who gets up in the middle of the night either...our 2 year old still wakes occasionally, especially since we have flip-flopped our schedule around lately... "life with him is half has hard and twice as good"-Sara Groves :)
Welp...thats all for now...not sure how this blog will go...maybe I will keep up with it...maybe I will delete it...who knows...
I enjoyed reading your blog. Can't wait to read more. I can totally relate to lack of sleep, some nights I'm woken up by each one of my kids. But I promise its only a season and it will pass they grow so quickly. I can't wait to meet your precious children.
ReplyDeleteI am the same way when I'm sleep deprived! I will pray that you get some good nights of sleep! I don't know if you're like me, but when my first two were bad sleepers I started wondering if it was just my bad sleep parenting. So, I just want to encouraged you... it's not a parenting flaw that makes your kids not sleep well! You are an awesome mommy and this is a hard stage. I feel like this stage of life, while very rewarding, is definitely challenging and teaching me to be more like Christ.
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